How Do I

It's the worst feeling in the world 

to love and hate someone all at the same time . 

And it's hard to watch things change 

when all you want is for them to stay the same.

 It's funny but stupid 

how you want everything and nothing at the same time .

 It's crazy when you want to let go, 

but you keep holding on, 

and when you want to move on 

but you're stuck right where you started. 

When feelings come and go and you can't decide what you want. 

When you have so many things to say 

but you don't know where to start. 

When you want them 

in your life so bad, 

but all you can do is

 push them further and further away. 

It's so hard to think back to how things used to be 

and look at it now and realize that things 

are different and they may never be the same. 

You tell yourself it's not worth it, but if it really didn't matter, you would't spend so much time thinking about it.